Confessions of a Single Woman

Confessions of a Single Woman

I’ve been “single” for 5 months now. 5 months may not seem like a long time, but that’s 5 months of being alone a lot. Depressing right? haha. Not that there’s a problem with being single nor do I really want to be with someone emotionally. It’s more of that getting used to having someone around all the time, someone to talk to, someone to hangout with, someone to just be there when you need them. When all of that is no longer there. You have to do everything different. You have to learn to love yourself, you have to learn to do the things you did before, except with yourself. You have to find the happiness and love with yourself, before you can give it to someone else. You have to be happy with yourself before just throwing yourself at another person. Have your life together and all that other junk. However with all this “free time” I have on my hands, I’ve caught myself watching a lot more Netflix now. I sure get my money’s worth in movies and tv shows that I watch… that I binge on… like how I watched all 4 seasons of Raising Hope in 4 days. One second, it’s 7pm and the next time I look at the clock it’s like 4am.

Confessions of a Single Woman

Now so I don’t like a completely lazy bum, I also try to catch up on blog stuff. Like now I’m writing this post and watching “The Fall” haha. Seriously though, last night I was able to get a product review posted. I have some other reviews to get posted as well as some wishlist post I want to get posted. Seriously besides those two things, I really don’t do much of anything else. I mean sometimes I go hangout with my sister and her kids, but not as much as I did over winter vacation, which was fun. I guess it doesn’t help that I don’t have a car and really can’t get around. I think if I had at least that I wouldn’t be as alone and bored. But it is what it is right now. When I move to NC, life as a whole will be better. I’ll be getting a job, a car, a nice place to live. But until June, I will continue to do the whole netflixing and blogging life.

Confessions of a Single Woman

 Tried the whole dating apps like Tinder and all those stupid dating sites. They aren’t what they used to be. It’s just a ungodly amount of men just wanting one thing and one thing alone. Or the kids who just want to talk to you because they want or need something. But when you message them, they’re “too busy” or flat out ignore you. Yea, I got tired of getting ignored. That’s not a relationship I want again or a friendship. That’s crap. So I just deleted them all. Being single wouldn’t such as much if you had people to hangout with. It’s like when you’re not alone, you remember that there’sConfessions of a Single Woman more to life than binging on Netflix for 13 hours in a row, or that there is happiness in the world. But when you’re alone, like at night before bed, that’s when it’s the worst. Some nights are worst than others. I guess that’s why my insomnia is sometime the worst. But other nights, I try to play my apps before bed, so I do that til I can’t keep my eyes open and fall asleep, so I don’t have about to think about the fact that I’m alone. Does that make sense? weird I know. I’m in a better place than I was 5 months ago, I know that at least, I didn’t think I would be, given what I had to go through, AGAIN.. I’m happy of myself. I don’t know how much of a “single girl confessions” this really is, but it feels good to get it off my chest if nothing else.

About Natalie

I'm Natalie, a tech-savy christian single mom of four who has recently stepped out of her comfort zone to find the meaning of life while sharing the utterly amazing things along the way. I currently work 3 jobs to make a living for my kids. I simply love coffee shops, traveling, a total foodie, and graphic design.

Comments

  1. I feel the same; I am happy solo for now. I would rather be single than be with someone that doesn’t deserve me.

  2. Great Post!!! I was single for a year!! Me time is always good. It helps to maintain the balance you need to be in a healthy relationship. And…you don’t have to compromise on where to eat or what to watch! I loved being in my pj’s and not worrying about what I looked like. Although, I’m married now and not much has changed….so perhaps it isn’t a valid point. Anyhow, enjoy it!!! Take the time for you!!!

    • Haha that’s what I did when I was married.. pjs life is where it’s at.. However not sure I’ll be able to do that, if this blogger junk doesnt bring in income haha.. I’m actually looking forward to getting out of the house and working, sad kinda.. laying around in pjs blogging is a lot easier lol

  3. We get a lot out of our netflix and/or amazon prime, too. Especially with the “waterfalls” shows (just falling water the whole time) at quiet time when the kids are calming down for the evening 🙂

  4. pumpkinsfan76 says:

    I think being single is fine, like you said you are waiting for what you deserve.

  5. The year and a half I was single before I met my husband was definitely hard, and I feel you on the loneliness. But, you learn so much about yourself, grow, and – as you stated- end up in a better place than you were previously. While it is hard, you must remember- you are single for a reason, and that is because you choose to be. I guarantee you could find a boyfriend/husband/etc- but it might not be somebody who is actually good for you. I bet any of those tinder boys you could have hooked, but you CHOSE not to, because you deserve better. Keep reminding yourself of that!

  6. Being single can be tough when you are used to being in a relationship. However, it gets easier over time. I don’t do the dating apps thing because it is just a bunch of men up there who have no goals for their life and are just looking for one night stands in my opinion.

  7. Being single can certainly be so tough! I miss some aspects of being single, but there are many that I am so thankful to be past that point of my life. Hang in there! And kudos to you for knowing your worth and waiting for what you deserve!

  8. I know exactly what you mean my life now is work, home to blog, eat and/or watch tv and thats it nothing more. Its tough being single but as the quote says its not that you’re week just waiting for what you deserve. Things will love up soon, just continue loving you

  9. Being single does have its drawbacks, but it is also kind of nice! Even though you might spend all this time alone…enjoy it! When you get to be a wife and a mom, you will wish you had an hour of alone time! I only get alone time at 3 am haha!

  10. 5 months may seem like a long time especially when you’re bored and thinking about getting together with other people to feel more complete. Anyway, everything you said is true. It’s just a matter of perspective. I guess we need to find things that make us happy and feel loved and special.

  11. You are so right to wait for the right person that deserves you. I was so happy single and ready to be single for as long as it took and then my husband popped out of the blue one weekend and the instant I met him, I knew. Before that I had wasted my time on men who, like you found, want one thing. It’s far better to wait – good things come to those who wait, and that needn’t be a man 🙂

  12. First of all, it’s awesome that you have your blog to focus on – it’s your baby, it deserves all of your well-spent attention, and you get the benefit of some wonderful interactions, I’m sure. 🙂 I hear you on the lowlights of being single… I’ve definitely spent time with similar emotions and circumstances. But depending on how you look at it, there are always benefits as well.. And without sounding too Pollyanna-ish, I think it’s good to enjoy the pros of your current situation. So, when you’re in a relationship, you have the best of that world, and when you’re not, you can binge watch your favorite show for 10 hours and eat/wear whatever you want (or not). 😉 Have fun!

    xo,
    lauriel
    EyeForElegance.com

  13. Awh, I’ve been there. When my oldest child was 10m old, to the day, my husband…my rock…my everything went to the store and never came home. He had me bake him cookies, kissed me good bye in the most romantic way and hopped a 4000 and some odd mile flight to the UK. I thought he had died. Then, I wished I had.

    I would invest your time in your children, so they remember a Mum who made them happy, even on the days when she was not. Rekindle an old spark in yourself, remember your old hobbies, passions and the qualities about yourself that you loved before you made someone else your priority– and find them all again. Read, lots. Get into a bedtime routine, with no lights on for an hour or so before bed and take some melantonin, if it’ll help you sleep (it won’t leave you groggy in the morning and it’s natural).

    And run. Walk, at first, but run.

    Those are just the things that helped me and, if you ever need to chat, you can always feel free to bend my ear. I went through hell but, fast forward 8 years and I’m with the first person that ever told me he loved me (before the ex hubby) and we have a beautiful family. Four kiddoes here too…so I feel ya on that one as well LOL
    🙂

    <3

    • WOW, just wow.. Thanks for sharing that with me, that’s crazy.. and thank you! I actually used to hate reading and I happen to enjoy that now. I live in no man’s land, no where to really walk, after I move though, I plan on walking all the time, I want to do at least one 5k, small goals for the year. I wish melantonin worked for me, but my body got used to it and it doesn’t work anymore. But thank you!

  14. I’m obsessed with Netflix!! Haha in with you on losing track of time watching things on there. There’s just sooo mannnnny choicesssss. You are so right, you have to learn to love yourself before you can open up and love anyone else!

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